Mommy Days

Wow, it's been awhile since I've sat down to blog...I can't imagine why...not sure what's occupying my time.  ;)

I don't even know where to start....what an incredible experience it is being a mommy.  I have several kiddos in my life that I love like my own, but holy cow...it's CRAZY to see my heart outside of my body!  Lucky doesn't even begin to cover it, blessed just isn't enough, grateful of course!  As we don't sleep that great, I can't imagine what our world would be like if I was still teaching, I have a new respect for my friend's who have worked full time and had littles...not sure how you did or do it!  I know I'm beyond blessed to be able to work from home on my own time/hours and to take care of Cooper...relying on my parents and brother occasionally.  But with that being said, I'm a social girl...love being around people, active, and involved in everything....HALT....now I don't want to leave the house, I want to snuggle with my munchkin...we are learning together. 

This week I had to decided to not make it to Bible Study so I could not run crazy with Cooper two days in a row.  Sacrifices I normally never would have made, I would have pushed through, but he's worth it.  That leads me to my mommy melt downs....I know it's not possible to keep up with what I used to do...but I strive to...run our business, still teach craft classes, keep the house clean, dishes done, Cooper attended to, run almost daily, my Bible Study, preparing for my tutoring clients....and the list goes on...you know those pressures you put on yourself, but pretend like someone else expects them of you?  Yeah...well, thankfully I'm in this fabulous Bible study where I'm learning about how to Crash the Chatterbox, I know that it's me that puts those pressures on myself to keep the house clean and dinner on the table when Bryan comes home from work...because isn't that what happened on "Leave it to Beaver?"  Surely June Cleaver had all of her stuff together and accomplished her to do lists? Yeah right!  Not with a baby that only cat naps during the day and pigs out wanting to eat every two hours!  It's time to turn off the chatter in my head that's negative...telling me I must accomplish this, this has to get done or Bryan will be upset when he gets home...HELLO REALITY CHECK....He does NOT care if it doesn't get done!  He cares that Cooper is taken care of and I take care of myself! We decided together for me to be home with Cooper, because he's most important, not what I accomplish during the day!  It's in my head that as a stay at home mom that I accomplish XYZ...stupid chatter!  Our lives are so much richer now, we slow down and just enjoy! 

Today I really got to slow down and just enjoy, as my sweet nephew Knox came to play with us for a few hours...Oma and Opa are vacationing so Judd and I swapped babysitting with each other...yesterday he got Cooper while I had to advocate for a parent at school and today I got to spend time with Knox.  Knox is such a joy, he loves his baby Cooper...wants to spend time with him, do what he does, hold him (which was a first...usually he just wants him sitting next to him on the couch/chair), play in his bed with him...priceless memories with the two little loves of my life! 

 

In all of this, trials and joys, we are so thankful!  As we journey this thing called parenthood...growing together and closer to our family...becoming our own family, we continue to realize and see the miracle that this truly is!  We are blessed!   We are rich!  There are still days when we look at each other and remind ourselves that this IS REAL!  Cooper is really ours! 

 

Next week on Bryan's birthday, the 25th, we celebrate our 3rd month of having Cooper as ours, and then on the 30th we stand before a judge and lose our title as "temporary guardians" and become his parents!  

 

We still remind Cooper how loved he is, how wanted he is and was, telling him about his Tummy Mummy, praying for her.  She is doing well, we send her pictures and she has reached out to ask us about him.  Because of her gift, her sacrifice, her love we get to be a family...how exactly does one thank someone for that gift?  The only way we know how to do that is to show her love, unconditional love over the course of Cooper's life. 

 

God is good all the time, all the time God is good!